I shall begin this rant with as much humility as I can afford to borrow. I am currently out of work and without my own shelter and transportation. For the last ten years I have struggled to fight the tide for the sake of the wife that left me, our children with her, my truck that was stolen with my dog inside, the trailer that is in the repo lot, and the sombrero with my Spanish to English dictionary duct tapped to the inside that the officers said I never had just this side of the Great Wall of Depression. I am beside myself with grief. All my grief in a back pack. Once again I will trudge the open road privileged to pursue happiness and never find it. I, like so many others in this country, am held in contempt for the masses. I have 56 work credits yet I am told " We will not let you retire for 25 more years. " I have to argue for unemployment, and jump through flaming hoops at the crack of the whip for food stamps. I am told at interviews all the reasons I should give up, such as " You cannot work here ", " You need to leave", " It's too late ". I am suffering for others who willing sacrifice others for their gain. I need a vacation from the torment of existence. There seems to be a great ignorance of the reasons for homelessness. We are the Public without Homes. We are the tax payers for whom the public works projects are off limits. Public camp sites are for vacationers and not for us that are forced into social slavery. This epidemic of thorny crowned individuals with scars and injustice on their backs is an avalanche that will crush the fruitless cities below. Or maybe I really am schizophrenic. The Mid-Missouri Mental Health Facility told me " You are schizophrenic and suffer from anxiety and depression." When I applied for Social Security for mental health reasons the state of Missouri denied my case saying " We have evaluated and medicated Mr. Cruz and we have cured him of his ailments. The medical establishment has said that there is no cure for schizophrenia.
I am fortunate to have grown up poor and in debt. I have not fallen as far as most of us out there. After I graduated in 1990, I took to work to help the family. I have a varied work history and I am professional in many areas. I am a dishwasher, line cook, personal chef, dept. manager, sales associate, auto detailer, auto restoration, mechanic, radiator repairman, laborer, carpenter, framer, draftsman, home remodel man, tear out specialist, house painter, artist in several media, muralist, airbrush artist, I worked with a 95 pound jackhammer and yes,......I like to throw a line in the creek, but I love steaks and potato's, because they don't smell like fish. Because of all these things and with the help of some family that can tolerate my hermit like condition,......I do not appear homeless. Truth is that I am homeless and I will suffer anyway it goes so I must venture off the eggshells and into the wind. At least I am prepared. I am neither a drunk nor druggie, I challenge if you call me lazy. I live a life of relative ease because I am mentally prepared. It just may be why a society founded on destruction instead of construction fired me. The Peoples understanding of the driving force of this nation is inadequate. Every government is like an engine with many parts. Without fuel the engine will not do much at all. The fuel our Government is using is Controlled Destruction. The destruction of us, the citizens. Destruction leads to violence and crime, the driving force of the nations engine. We do not have one threshold of pain for all people, some can tolerate more than others. A person is targeted, slowly pushed into poverty, personal networks and resources are exhausted, public securities and care offices are overwhelmed, landlords and debt collectors release the hounds, the foundations of family and friends are shaken and cracked. Destitute and without shelter some turn to petty crimes for the sake of survival and comfort. In some public areas it is illegal to drink alcohol, smoke cigarettes, ask for food, clothing, medicine, a blanket, spare change, a ride, or just to sit and enjoy the sunshine. Why is this so? Is it that people just don't want to see a dirty bum. Or is it that fuel is food and when was when last time you walked up to a cow in the pasture and cut a bloody hunk off the animal slapped it between two slices of bread and ate it right in front of that bleeding creature? This person is consumed by the authorities and the family herd will lose more to the absence of an elder figure. After in custody of the local law that just happens to be in areas that are not local, the provocation begins so that maybe he may be guilty of more, essentially this is the fattening of the specific dinner item. This creatures body will feed many. These types of creatures are better served along side more of the same so that the obese may remain healthy. Because of this unwilling subject, the obese have job security. Money made from destruction. You may ask who makes money off a poor person like this, so here is a small list. Insurance companies, Doctors, Lawyers, Prosecutors, Judges, Police, Gun manufacturers, Secrateries, Paper Mills, Private Prisons, Food Companies, (strangely enough) Construction Companies (more prisons), Auto Industry, Airlines, Mortuaries, Churches, Priests and Reverends, Computer Specialists, Porn industries, Drug Dealers, Chop Shops, Black Market Organ Sales, Counselors, Handcuff and Passive Restraint Manufacturers, Home Remodel Companies, Water and Fire Restoration Companies,
Public Transportation,............And McDonald's. Yes. I am so poor I take advantage of the dollar menu, for I have not a stove of my own. Is this a stretch? There are people in society who drink no alcohol at all. Yet I have heard them complain when their good family individuals choose to drink at dinner and receive a DUI on the way home due to the new laws imposed because all the real drinkers stopped driving and the motor needs fuel. Now I have heard the non drinkers complain about court fees and ALONON, S.A.T.O.P., loss of drivers privileges, insurance increases and all the other negative aspects of the lower blood alcohol limit. What about these new laws concerning smoking while driving in your own personal vehicle. How much will that cost.
There are two forms of Democracy. One built on destruction that destroys the very people it proclaims to protect, letting them suffer, and lending a finger instead of a hand. The other is built on constuction. It is constructive to a Nation to care for those suffering. A government is a house of refuge for the people, in fact the people of the nation are the timbers and stones, the mortar of the building. The building must recieve regular maintenance. Sadly I believe I am wasting my breath. This country has become filled with greed. How is it that with all the advances since the industrial revolution we are sieged with inflation? All the machines and new understanding that make our lives easier, increase productivity,
make life more expensive for basic neccesities? Remember when a 2x4 cost 89 cents and took all day to make? Now they make hundreds of thousands a day
and cost $4 a piece. Greed is killing us. Why wait 3 years to pay off equipment debt? Pass it on for more pie today. Greed rolls downhill, that's where the country is headed.