I attended church and sought the prayer and fellowship of Christians. Still, I thought I was dying, and I felt worthless. I really thought that I was going to die. I put my insurance policies in order in case I should carry through with the plan to take my life. Some days I felt that I could not go on. I was so beat, so tired that I couldn't go on any more.
If someone tells you that they're going to take their life, please don't treat them as a coward, or as though they were evil. Instead, give them your encouragement, support to work through their depression, and enjoy life again. To the ears of a depressed person, "Tighten your belt and pull up your socks," will sound cruel because there is little they can do to help themselves. Often, friends turn away from a person who is deeply depressed. A "tough love" response can often increase the chance of suicide, whereas with the love and support of friends and relatives, the individual has a much greater chance of overcoming their depression. As an inventor I had discovered a mystery that no one k about, If ever get out of this, I am going to tell the world.
I was never the one that hides anything, I was always bold and out spoken, even to the point that I never hid the fact that I was committing adultery, I even tried to have the child that was born of it intermingle with my boys, and told my wife everything even assuring her that I would never leave her. I know what you are thinking, this guy is nuts yes, I was arrogant and did not care a can of beans what you taught, I have been hurt all of my life, I am a successful Inventor and an employer when I needed help no one was there for me, mind your own business. Maybe I was arrogant but never a dishonest hypocrite. Nevertheless, I was about to bow to the King of Kings.
You may have heard of someone who has lost a loved one and not long afterwards they themselves pass away the cause of death was the enormous stress of grieving so painful and devastating that the result was death, when they say that soldiers are suffering from "post dramatic stress" you would believe that it meant some special condition, my friends it's "the big D" they are going through shear torture.
Most of these people do not make their pain public but instead remain in their rooms with their curtains pulled, mentally trying to bring back their loved one to life. The pain of depression feels like grief. It is easier to have half your bones broken than to cope with a deep depression.