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I have not written anything for a long time,....I have been busy being tortured. I am sure that there will be those few people who will say bad things about me, but thats alright because everyone knows they suck anyway. So with that being said I will move on to the subject of,.. Arizona,........why in Hell would I want to do that? This was my reply when asked the other day about my living intentions. Frankly,...I do not intend to grow old and die in Arizona. First of all it is too hot. Hot as in fire,...heat,...
.....hot coals,........even the devils don't want to be in Arizona. Dead bodies don't mind the heat,....and I ain't dead. Did you know...... there ain't no water in Arizona.
Just like Nevada they steal the water from some other place. They have to,......it is the desert. There are a lot of rocks and sand, and dead plants. I have found a lot of bones out here,......there must be some animals alive out here,...but they are hiding.
Lot's of racists out here too. Bigots,...hippocrites,....democrats and republicans,...
all kinds of crazy people and they only get worse with the heat. I think it will get as hot as 130 degrees F. this summer here in Phoenix. I was born here in Phoenix,..it
has become unbearable,....the heat.....and the people going crazy from the heat related stresses. There is a whole bunch of Mexican haters out here,.....and that's bad for me because I am a Mexican of Mayan Indian descent,...third generation American son of an American Military Vetran,....who told me it was best not to enlist in the military. I believed him,.....from where we lived it looked to pay very little.
There are a bunch of White hater's out here too. Mexican's that inwardly despise whites,.......and that's bad for me because I lived in Columbia Missouri for more than 25 years. In my highschool there were 700 students,....I was one of two Mexicans in my highschool. I can navigate the ocean of adversity,...and the cultural diversity that rises to the top because I am not a bottom feeder. All the things that I have learned in life are useless in Arizona,...almost all things. My common sense still works and it is screaming that it is too DAMN HOT in Arizona. I went for a walk and I got a sunburn under my chin,.....sunburned on my elbows,...right through my shirt! Do you understand the amount of sunshine it takes to get sunburned through a white shirt! I don't either,.....but it is DAMN HOT. Yeah I'm mad,.....I am in the desert! I am making plans to leave,......this place suck's. I had a cute Mexicana,... a cute Mexican girl call me a Royal Thomas the other day,.....you know what that is,.....it is spanish.
She called me a Mexican Uncle Tom. Ya know what,.......I am gonna leave her **** to burn in this damn desert and I don't feel bad about it. Why,.....because She said,....
....it is too late. I think the heat has boiled her brainpan. Poor thing,......she can't even make tortillas, she has to buy them. I can make tortillas,....I am a chef. As a chef I am trained to recognize tempature and it is too DAMN HOT in Arizona. I am leaving,...stay here and burn if you want,.....completely up to you. Even God don't like the desert,......he said when He casts out evil spirits He sends them to arid places where they wander seeking rest and find none. It don't get much more arid than a desert I can tell you that. There are places in Arizona that are covered with snow and a lot cooler but they are owned by white people and they ain't selling. Yeah,......they got all the good spots,....even got real water that flows in the wild and they even got a big lake,.......ski resorts. I been there to see the water and it is mostly white people out on big boats and stuff. They did not seem to mind me being there,......they thought it was my job,...pickin up trash and stuff. There were a few Mexicans there as well,.........but I think they were a bunch of Royal Tom **** as they had so much money they only spoke spanish, and I don't speak much spanish. The teachers in Missouri when I was real young told me not to speak spanish anymore,
...just Ingish,...I remember like it was yesterday,....you speaka Ingish here,...............
.....you no more speaka mexican round here,..no more. I was about seven or so,...
Parkade Elementary. The white girls thought I was a novelty,...I was the only Latino available. As a local farmboy I learned the river ways,.....great times,.....sometimes.
I always thought I would one day call Arizona home but it is too late,....because
it is too DAMN HOT. I cannot explain,.....this is the type of weather you hear about after the bodies are discovered. If you add up all the odds against survival it is a miracle that people live in Arizona. I forsee a time soon when they will not.
Ya know,.......they even got them U.F.O things out here, taken people,...I guess.
Very strange to see it. They even got ghost's out here. Freaky wierd ya know,.........
.......real freaky. Lot's of ghost's. I see them more often than the UFO things. I know some people think I'm crazy,...because of what I say. Always because of what I say,....never because of what I do. Ya know,......maybe I ain't crazy,..... Some people telling me ain't no such thing as ghost's,....spirits,....UFO's and stuff. They tell me I see stuff just because I'm looking for it. Well I been looking for a job and I ain't found that yet. There really is not much for gainfull employment around here and those that are hiring are not hiring me. It may be because of my colorful younger day's when I had a bondsman on call,......because it was neccessary. Still,......that ain't no reason to hold a grudge. Must be some kind of work I can get. The local lawdog old Sheriff Joe Apaio has deported most of the working people around here. I thought,.....when my fellow Mexicano's got sent back to Mexico for not having a legal right to work in the states,....I thought,.....hey,....ya know,......I might get a job.
Well I was wrong. Turns out there were a lot of white folks that needed a job too,...
.....and now they know what it feels like to work for slave wages. I would mention the blacks here in Arizona but the truth is there are not very many and if there are more than I have seen they must be really smart and only come out at night. Black people know that it is too DAMN HOT in Arizona. I have a couple of cousins that live here and they are Afican in descent. They are not happy. Arizona is a very dusty,....
.....dry,........poor,.........soul sucking state of the union. If you are unfamiliar with Arizona,...please do not consider my opinion the ultimate opinion on your travel destinations for whatever reasons you do travel. Sure,.......come on down and burn for yourself what a bite in the **** this state can be. This place is a witches brew of
struggle struggle struggle,..toil and trouble,...nobody loves me,...everybody hates me,
.........I',m gonna eat some worms. Really though make up your own mind and visit Arizona,.......dig your toes in the sand and throw some rock's,...because it's hot.
What can I say? Desert. Even the Indians left. Arizona,......why in Hell would I want to do that?